Gray Love is a painting that was made by using my fingers, hands, rags, and towels. For this piece, I knew I wanted to do another self-portrait, and wanted to do a brick background. However, I didn't want to have myself stick out. Instead, I focused on using the same color palette throughout to blend myself into the background. 

At the time, using the colors that I did was an act of symbolism for the mood I was feeling and emotions. I didn't really love myself, but wanted that love. Hence, the heart, and hence having myself become part of the brick wall. I felt stuck, and cemented in. I honestly did not like creating self-portraits, or having myself in a picture. Most times, it felt as though I were a facade.

Interestingly, though, came this painting after a few other self-portraits that depicted feelings almost the exact opposite (although, the majority all had the same color palette).

Later on, after its creation, I began to have more love for myself. In a way, I can say, seeing myself depicted like this sparked change.

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